I’m Alone

I’m alone with

a feeling so low,

I’m lost in this life

not knowing where to go.

Missing a lady and

that feeling of romance,

like floating on a cloud

totally in a trance.

I should feel so lucky

for where I live,

everything paid for

and love to give.

That sense of loss

it seems to remain,

hanging on so tight

so full of pain.

Cold dark feelings

engulfed in despair,

the kind of things

one should never share.

A quest for love

the glorious inclusion,

merging with a partner

lessening the confusion.

Gary R. Cramer

January 1, 2019

Her Name Was Sharon

Her name was Sharon

It had been 50 long years,

the thought of seeing her

brought up old fears.

What if we shared

a night over dinner,

and she felt nothing

I wasn’t the winner.

Way back then

at Mt. Eden High,

the simple sight of her

left me with a sigh.

Now visits on the Web

via occasional emails,

each message from her

put wind in my sails.

I confessed to her

of my long ago crush,

she wished I had told

instead of the long hush.

Then the other night

as I entered the room,

my eyes did search

fearing a shaded gloom.

What if she canceled

and didn’t come after all,

the night would be wasted

as my hopes would fall.

Then like the moon

all silver and aglow,

I glimpsed her there

and a smile did show.

So soft and gentle

she showed a grace,

her body seemed perfect

for satin and lace.

I had to smile

and even gave a little snort,

she didn’t think she was popular

now a queen with her court.

I approached with caution

my heart on my sleeve,

if I was rejected

I’d simply have to leave.

We smiled at each other

so subdued and polite,

but my eyes ate her up

and I was full of delight.

So happy to see her

no matter the cost,

just to be near

I was again so lost.

Oh dear Lord what

have you gone and done,

so very smitten

I just wanted to run.

But she held me there

such a wonderful vision,

her face with a smile

my newly found mission.

I approached so slowly

with confidence and charm,

but as I neared her

I heard that familiar alarm.

What was that noise

from where did it come,

it’s only my heart

beating like a drum.

Something about her

had always made me smile,

a gentle loving radiance

I could spot from a mile.

I left her alone

to bask in her glory,

a constant flow of men

each telling their story.

The night was closing

my feelings did smolder,

I mustered a quiet thank you

and kissed her on the shoulder.

As I drove away

my heart it stalled,

I didn’t have her number

and she never called.

Gary Cramer

October 20, 2014

First Sight

When first I saw her,

I twinkled like a star.

She appeared so close,

and still so far.

From deep within

I felt a warm glow.

So eager to meet her,

yet afraid it might show.

Gary R. Cramer

Early 1980’s