Questions Of Pain

Oh dear God

the aloneness so deep,

Pain so intense

it makes me weep.

How can it be

I allowed it to grow,

coming from where

I just don’t know.

Such a heavy burden

within my chest,

this haunting ghost

won’t let me rest.

What’s missing in life

my heart without song,

why can’t I feel

like I truly belong.

Wanting to achieve

something worth while,

but the more I search

my stomach fills with bile.

No small thing gives a

man peace of mind,

so hard to explain

something you cannot find.

As a youth I wrestled

with fear and superstition,

now as an adult I

most cope with ambition.

What should I do

where must I go,

voiced since adolescence

and still I don’t know.

Thru the course of

many a normal day,

I grow so restless

seldom feeling gay.

Like a spinning compass

without a North Pole,

I wander thru life

A truly lost soul.

looking about I see

others with far less,

and yet they’re fulfilled

living in happiness.

Wanting to succeed

feeling I can do that,

but not knowing the way

or the course of attack.

So often the frustration

me feel I might explode,

from not finding the vehicle

to lighten the load.

For whom do I search

and what do I yearn,

to teach me the lessons

of life I must learn.

Gary R. Cramer

July 16, 1987